waning about weaning (when did you stop breastfeeding?)

I was one of the lucky ones.

Long before having Levi I had decided that I wanted to try breastfeeding. I had done a bit of reading about it and talked to a lot of other moms about their experiences. I would have considered myself pretty well-informed on the subject, and I was very well-prepared for the fact that it might be extremely difficult… and painful. 

Actually, I had heard so many horror stories that I thought there was no way around it.

I thought to myself, “If I can just make it through the first six weeks it will get easier and it will be so worth all of the pain and trouble.” I would prepare for the worst and then grit my teeth with sheer determination until it got easier. (I know, I know. You’re already snickering here… Classic first-time-mom response right?)

And then I gave birth… And tried breastfeeding… And from the first moment it was…

Easy.

Imagine my shock! 

Imagine my relief! 

Imagine my joy!

I know that my experience is not the “norm” unfortunately, but for me breastfeeding was as natural and easy as anyone could ever hope for. (And after my unexpected c-section, I think it was grace to me… I'm not sure if I could have emotionally handled breastfeeding dramas at that point in time.)

And aside from the standard clogged duct here and there (yeah, that’s painful!) it has continued to be easy and hassle-free up until this day.

My plan has always been to breastfeed until Levi is twelve months old so that I wouldn’t need to wean to formula and then over to cow’s milk. I figured that if I could make it to his first birthday then I could easily wean straight over to cow’s milk and that would be that. Easy peasy.

It is now 24 days until Levi's first birthday and I’m faced with decision-time. 

And--although I'm normally an incredibly decisive person--I find myself... waffling on this one.

Do I really want to wean? Is this the right time? If I do, will I regret it? If I don’t will I resent it?

I’ve loved the convenience and ease and experience of breastfeeding and there’s a small part of me that wants to hang on. (Oh, the simplicity when traveling and the unrivaled ability to quickly comfort a sick or teething baby!!!)

And yet there’s another part of me that is more than ready to say good-bye to sharing my body in that way (yes, I sometimes feel like it’s “milking time” at mama’s bar *moooooo*). And I’m also ready for the freedom of not being bound to feeding times. (I still nurse at wake-up and bedtime and 1-2 times during the day… and have never really gotten into the swing of pumping much.) And then there’s the wanting to have my hormonal balance back to normal… for many reasons.

I’ve read what the experts say – there’s really no ideal time to wean… other than when mom and bub are both ready (and when there’s no major changes or sickness happening).

So the question is, am I ready? Is Levi ready?

Never mind cultural norms. Never mind convenience. Never mind what I thought I “should” do. Never mind age or months or measured out food.

Are we ready? And if we are, then how long do I give us to go through the process? A week? A month? A couple of months?

I’m not expecting anyone to answer these questions for me. It’s our decision, it’s personal, and I’m more than comfortable with that.

But what I am wondering is how you experienced weaning? Did you lead? Did you let your baby lead? Was it a combination? What it for medical reasons or going back to work reasons or emotional reasons?

Did you just know when it was time?

Would you go back and do it differently if you could?

Dear friends, I’d love to hear your experiences with weaning? Did you waiver a little like me? Or was it a cut-and-dry decision for you?

waning just a little,

adriel booker | the mommyhood memos | 2010 
do not reproduce without written permission

how to be a stay-at-home mom without losing your marbles

{This post is part of the Moms Who Work series.}

Every working mom has challenges, but today I want to look at the challenge of staying sane as the stay-at-home sort of working mom.

Here are some readers tips, as well as some of my own, for how to be a SAHM without compromising your sanity:

Find some outlets that don’t have to do with being a mom.

Queenie from the PLANET pink: 
For me, sanity relies A LOT on having outlets that help to define me outside of being a mama.  The first time I was a SAHM I was shocked to discover that it didn't really fulfill me the way I expected it to.  I loved it of course, but I soon realized that although being a mama and staying home with my kids is one of the most important parts of me (and certainly consumes the most time), it is not the only part.  If that was all I was, you would see my sanity drowning in the laundry and dishes. So I've actively been seeking creative outlets that I enjoy.  Some of them do revolve around being a mother (like blogging for example), but not all of them do, like church and my childbirth educator certification.  But put them all together and you get a well-rounded me who is happy with where I am in life.

Sarah from Four Leaf Photography: 
I worked full time until my oldest was 1 and then went to part time and then quit when #2 was born.  It was really hard so I always tell people considering it to make sure they get a hobby.  Literally.  If it weren't for my photography I wouldn't have gotten through the first year.  Play dates are good but when you're used to being challenged mentally everyday at work, you need something to keep that going. 

Create some structure for your day.

Cameron from Ingenue Mom: 
I found that having some sort of structure to my day really helped me. That's one of the reasons why we chose to do more of a routine with Isis. It kept me sane & allowed me to be a better mom. If I knew "okay, she's going to take a nap next & I'm going to do dishes & laundry" then it helped me break up my day.

Get out of the house.

Livy from Making Over Mum:

Getting outside lots and lots! I start to go a little stir crazy if I go to many days without an outing!

Teaching Tiny Tots: 

I found that taking an outing almost every day really helped especially since we had just moved to a new city.  It was a little intimidating in a large city with newborn twins but also fun to explore as well.  We received a great deal of attention and it was nice to talk to new people.

Take time for yourself and connect with girlfriends.

Michele from Misadventures of An Army Momma With Two Under 2: 
Be sure you get time to yourself, whether that's all by yourself or with a bunch of girlfriends. You need to keep being yourself and not just the mom with the kids!

If you work from home, try alternating blocks of time to work and play.

Kerry from Nesting with Niall: 
I initially thought that working from home was a dream come true - I could avoid the costs of day care and spend more time with my baby. What I didn't realize was that working from home means ignoring the baby who is sitting next to you with the puppy dog eyes begging to play with you. I've found that I have to switch gears every hour. I'll work for an hour and then play with Niall for an hour. It's just not fair to leave him sitting there, bored and unstimulated, for long periods of time.  It's also a nice break for me to get outside for a nice little walk/playtime.

Get active and do some exercise.

Jhen of From Here to Eternity: 
I love to do those Dancing With the Stars workout DVDs to keep my body moving and learn and little dance moves!

Mandy from It’s a Beautiful Life: 
I stay sane by keeping busy! My baby boy and I get our and about quite a bit. And when we’re home – we’re playing together. When he’s napping, I’m blogging!

{and some tips of my own}

Spend time playing with your child.

Obviously the baby needs to be fed. The laundry needs to be done. The floor needs to be swept. Those tasks come with the territory of being a SAHM (or any mom for that matter). But I find that if I don’t spend some deliberate time every day playing with my son, I end up getting really stressed with all the chores and maintenance of day-to-day housekeeping and child-minding. I need to get down on the floor, sing some songs, stack some blocks, play peek-a-boo, or chase him around the room on my hands and knees. And I don’t just mean play when he’s fussy and needs attention or to be entertained. Take some time to play with your child(ren) while they are already happy and just enjoy each other. On especially stressful days, this is my saving grace. It gives me a chance to laugh and enjoy the moment, and it always brings things back into perspective, helping me remember why I decided to stay home with him in the first place.

Have blocks of time allocated for work that needs undivided attention.

I am a project-oriented person. When I was single there would be times where I would get into a project at work and be so into it that I would burn the midnight oil just because I was on a roll and didn’t want to stop. As a SAHM with a young baby, I’ve learned that I have to try to do everything in 10-20 minute increments… because any longer than that and my little guy might need a change of activity or scenery. I miss having long blocks of time to just “get stuff done”. About once a month on a Saturday I take a “work” day to do all sorts of things that require the kind of focus that stopping and starting just won’t allow. My hubs takes care of the baby from morning until night – every naptime, diaper change, cooking, housework… all of it. He loves the change of pace he gets by playing Mr. Mom and I lock myself in the office and work! The only time I’m with Levi during those days are when Ryan brings him to be to nurse him or when I decide I need a short break or a focus shift (or just a quick cuddle because I miss him!). I love being able to look forward to these long days and can usually accomplish in a day what would otherwise take me an entire week!

Spend time thinking about the “why’s” of parenting and not just the “how’s”.

A while back I realized that I was constantly online and reading books about how to take care of a baby – things about breast feeding, preparing foods, helping them sleep, etc, and if I wasn’t taking care of my baby I was reading about it and thinking about it. Not good! I started reading an amazing book called Sacred Parenting, which is helping me to keep perspective and spend time thinking about why we parent and what it’s all for. It helps remind me of the bigger picture beyond boogers and blow-outs.

Debrief with your husband/partner/support person.

When my husband comes home from work I try not to bombard him with the details of my day before he has a chance to set his keys down… but he knows that if I don’t debrief and report how my day went to another adult at some point during the evening, I will most likely implode. Sharing some of what happened through the day is validating for me and helpful for me in making the transition from “mom mode” to “wife and friend” mode.

Be deliberate to not always be multi-tasking.

If you’re like me, then time is precious and there’s never enough of it! I’m constantly multi-tasking, whether it’s checking emails on my phone while I nurse my son, making a phone call while taking him on a walk, or doing the dishes between giving him bites of his meals. At times it’s a must and helps me to stay on top of things, but no doubt at other times it just means I’m spreading myself too thin and doing an average job at a bunch of things rather than a good job at a few things. One tangible thing that I do is try to make sure that in a day, I’m not multi-tasking for at least half of my son’s feedings.

Get showered and dressed and ready for the day each morning.

It’s so tempting to spend all day looking like I just rolled out of bed, but I’ve found that just by getting up and showered and (sometimes) putting on a little make-up, I move through my day much more easily (as opposed to feeling like my feet are dragging). When I’m showered and dressed and looking good, I feel good physically and my mind actually feels sharper.

Find a moms group or play group that you enjoy.

Play groups are for moms! Before I had a child I used to think play groups sounded so boring… but now I get it! I love getting together with other moms who have babies similar in age to mine... for adult conversation, swapping tips and stories about the kids, and just getting out of the house in general. (And there’s some thing really refreshing about cuddling other people’s babies too!)

Dear mommy-friends, I hope you’ve found these tips helpful. How do you stay sane as a SAHM? Can you relate to any of these? Do you have any that you'd like to add?

desperately trying to hold onto my marbles,

The Moms Who Work series:

• All moms work hard  
• How to be a stay-at-home mom without losing your marbles 
• Mom on a wire: finding balance and sanity in a home with two working parents
• You have spoken: the best and worst of being a working mom (away from home)
• How I became a pediatrician turned stay-at-home mom
• The pros and cons of being a work-from-home mom
• From home to work or work to home: speaking up about the transition process
• Back to work: tips for how to prepare for the transition after maternity leave
• Are stay-at-home moms 1950ish? (readers speak up about the best and worst of being a SAHM)
• 4 ways single moms are thriving 
• 8 tips for running a business as a work-from-home mom 
• Mom hat, student hat: important tips for studying moms 
• Hey honey, why don't you stay home with the baby while I go back to work? 
• What you wish others knew about being a mom
• Who wants to hear form a hunky Aussie bloke? (A "Daddy Chats" vlog)

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adriel booker | the mommyhood memos | 2010 
do not reproduce without written permission

baby steps to becoming a better mom

I remember being single and looking at my stay-at-home-mom friends wondering what in the world they did all day long. I assumed they watched Ellen and Oprah {yeah, I could handle that!}, worked on their tan in the back yard while the kids were napping {yes please!}, browsed through lots of magazines {fun!}, and went shopping a lot {bring it!}.

And then I became a stay-at-home-mom for myself.

Now by the time I was married and on my way to babyville, I did know it wasn’t going to be exactly like the above description. {grin} By then I knew stay-at-home-moms worked very hard. (I had seen enough Oprah episodes myself to know that.) I knew they were often tired and often very busy. But the extent of it?

No idea.

So now, as a stay-at-home-mom by choice for the last six months, I’ve had enough time for reality to well and truly sink in.

You see, I never wanted to sit around all day and just watch TV… but I did think that being home would afford me the chance to do some of the things I didn’t have time for when working full-time... I was going to dust off my guitar and write a bit of music. I was going to work on that book. I was going to take a million photos of my baby and learn about digital photo editing. Oh yeah, and I was going to become a domestic goddess – immaculate house, yummy meals served up regularly, and maybe even some baking now and then.

Don’t worry, I’ve been grounded since those initial aspirations.

In fact, in the last six months I’ve managed to not do any of those things (aside from taking a million photos of my baby of course… there’s always time for that – duh).

At first I thought it was just because life with a newborn is crazy and tiring (everyone tells you that). But then my newborn was no longer a newborn so I couldn’t use that excuse any more. And then of course there were the sleep problems, the teething, the growth spurts, the developmental leaps, and the dreaded nap times… There has been one challenge after another on the new-mommy-learning-curve!

And more and more I am realizing that, although I will get used to this, the moment I do it will change again. I can’t keep waiting for things to get “right” before I start to really pursue the things that are on my heart.

{And no, I’ve not started that book yet… or picked up my guitar.}

But I have made some little goals all over again.

In some ways I’ve never been much of a goal-setter because I love to make things up as I go along, and yet I am a list person for sure. {Mostly because I love to cross things off!} In light of that I decided to make a list of things that would help me take care of myself… so I can actually work my way up to that day where I’m able to take more on again. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’ve got to be really deliberate, perhaps more than ever.

I know I’m not alone in this… Back to Oprah. Just how many episodes have you seen about the necessity of moms taking time out for themselves? Obviously it’s an issue! And it’s a lesson I really want to learn early on in motherhood… because I figure that if I get things right in laying the foundations, then it will be something I can continue to nurture and grow in as I move forward.

So, here are my little goals… my “baby steps” that I believe will help me in becoming a better mom:

• Taking my vitamins every day. {Amazing what a difference this can make.}
• Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner. {I tend to skip meals on accident when I get busy.}
• Trying to eat healthy morning and afternoon snacks each day. {To help keep my energy levels up.}
• Showering and being ready for the day before my son’s morning naptime. {Sometimes hard to pull off but feels soooo good and actually helps me move “quicker” throughout the rest of the day.}
• Spending a few minutes in prayer and meditating on scripture each day. {Taking care of my soul and spirit.}
• Reading for pleasure fifteen minutes a day. {Baby books and websites don’t count!}
• Spending time outside. {Even if just a short walk around the neighbourhood or sitting on our front steps.}

Ta-da! That’s my list… my baby steps to becoming a better mom. They seem like such basic things—they are such basic things—and yet even in my short journey as a mom I’ve found that I can get so consumed with taking care of my son that the “basic” things in my own life can easily be left neglected.

Not any more!

I’ve put my “baby steps” list is on the fridge with a little check list and I’m charting my progress. {You’d think we were potty training here… maybe I should give myself a reward for stars accumulated??} I’m determined to do what I need to do to get better at taking care of myself, even if that does mean being accountable to a check list on my fridge (and my husband’s caring and watchful eye).  Because really, I know that taking better care of myself will not only help me to thrive, but it will also ultimately help me to better take care of my family too. And everyone loves a win-win.

Dear mommy friends, my list is so basic, and there are plenty of other things I’d like to add to it… but I needed to start with “baby steps” (even if it does feel a little humbling to admit). What about you? What’s on your “list”? What do you do to take care of yourself?

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